कैसे बताऊँ कि कितना दर्द है..

रोकर मैं अपने ही आँसूं पी लेता हूँ,

या सूख जाते हैं सिगरेट के धुएं से!

कुछ राख उड़कर चिपक जाती है चेहरे पे,

पर क्या फर्क पड़ता है, सब ठीक ही तो है!

कभी उड़ता था मैं भी आसमान में,

और अकेला न था, थे साथ किसी और के सपने भी,

उनसे ही तो उड़ान थी, उनसे ही थी कसक,

पर क्या फर्क पड़ता है, सब ठीक ही तो है!

कभी दीवारें मेरे घर की भी सजी सी रहती थीं,

अंगीठी की आग, शरीर में गर्मी का कारण न थी !

कभी मैं भी हँसता था तो कोई और खुश होता था,

पर क्या फर्क पड़ता है, सब ठीक ही तो है!

कभी मेरा भी कोई ख्याल रखता था, दिन और रात के पहरों में,

कभी मैं भी नशे में रहता था, साकी के आगोश में,

कभी मेरा भी नाम ज़िन्दगी था, और थी मेरी भी कोई ज़िन्दगी,

पर क्या फर्क पड़ता है, सब ठीक ही तो है!

आज अकेला इस बिस्तर पर, ठण्ड की इक कराह,

अपने कानों को ही बींधता हूँ!

मालूम है, कोई नहीं, फिर भी निगाह साथ नहीं देती,

ढूंढती है न जाने किसे, कोई नहीं, दर्द है,

पर क्या फर्क पड़ता है, सब ठीक ही तो है!!!

Let Me BE!

The pain is searing
Can't screen the thoughts anymore
Though I try, honestly,
But still, Why can't I just be me...

I have seen the sun and the sands,
I have traveled to far off places
They keep on following, they really do
And I cry, why can't I just be me...

I come home from work,
The food is ready, the remote inviting,
I look at them, the pain disagrees to subside
I scream, why can't I just be me...

The phone rings, I shudder
Its the daily call from home, I chat
Somebody is shouting, I wham the closet,
I plead, Why can't I just be me...

They say time, I wonder, how long
When would it come, when would it be,
The hug is painful, it starts bleeding
And then she says, you be you, I be me...

I gasp,If only...
there is an answer, just that I am afraid,
If I be me, there is no you...
Till death, only it can...I want to be me...

I like it like this...

I like it like this

It is just a cool breeze...

It ain't gonna stay, I know

But I still can feel it, while watch it go!

Sometimes I try to hold it

I am a fool...

But nothing ain't gonna stop it

Even if I drool.

I still like to try, I like it like this!

The summers, the winters

& of course the rains,

They all come and go,

Even if it pains.

I still like to try, I like it like this!

My fingers aren't crossed,

not any more,

They do feel numb

& they feel sore.

I still like to try, I like it like this!

For in this world

I was taught,

It's the action that counts,

& not the thoughts.

I still like to try, I like it like this!

For when I am over & no more,

I don't want nobody to say,

He was a loser to the core.

I try and try and try, I like it like this!

I do not wish to change you...

I do not wish to change you...

I just wanna show you that the flowers are still purple,

& the butterflies still have colors, blues and yellows.

The clouds still form shapes, the birds still chirp,

The roads can still be covered with green and mist...

I wanna make you feel that the snow hasn't hardened,

& making snowmen with carrots is still fun.

The long drives to nowhere still exist,

The blankets are still warm enough to make your heart melt...

I wanna make you believe that the world is not only buildings and apartments,

The homes still have chimneys, warm and cozy.

The words haven't all become empty,

The cups still hold water, the sun still shines...

I wanna take you to the stars and put the moon in your embrace,

& fill you with stories yet untold.

The adventures, the cacophony isn't all noise,

The water still remains calm after the stone, the waves still ebb out...

I wanna reflect the color of your eyes,

So you see they still twinkle, and how close you are.

You still exist, you still are, you still can be...

& I promise, it's not change, it's life!

So if you have forgotten,

Come to me, stumble if you need...

But I would hold you and make you stand.

Because, thats what you are...thats what you are...